There are days when I literally don’t want to get out of bed. It is as if my eyelids won’t respond to the commands from my brain to open. My limbs feel lifeless and numb. My thoughts are jumbled and incoherent. Sleep hangs onto me tighter than the covers I am wrapped in. This has… Read More


I haven’t written anything here in a while, and it’s at a time like this I’m always tempted to write an “I’m back!” kind of post. Truth be told, though, I’m kind of sick of doing that. For one thing, I didn’t really go anywhere; I just didn’t write anything. It also seems sort of… Read More


Do you ever wonder what trees think in the fall? Do they wonder why their leaves gradually die? Are they confused by the process of what is happening to them? Are they surprised to find themselves stripped bare one day? Do they feel cold? Do they feel lonely? Do they feel exposed? Are they jealous… Read More


I’ve been shattered. I thought it had happened before. I mean, after living with dysthymia for as long as I can remember, I knew I had touched some pretty deep lows. Looking back, though, that’s what they were – lows. I was still together, even thought I’m sure I didn’t feel like it at the… Read More


I have long known that I have perfectionist tendencies. I just cannot stand to get anything wrong. This has become extremely evident to me as of late in the new job I am doing. Without going into great detail, the potential exists for me to complete a task, send it on down the line, and… Read More


I mentioned in my last post that the engine in my 2000 Chevrolet S10 pickup truck was no more. To sum up briefly what happened, I believe I had some type of coolant leak, as my temperature gauge never went into the danger zone and thick, white smoke spewed from my tailpipe. In an effort… Read More


I don’t know how much more of this I can take. I wrote a pretty popular piece yesterday about how bad things happen to everyone and how I shouldn’t take things so hard. Then, of course, today I find out in an effort to get my truck to the garage the other day without having… Read More


Yesterday was bad. No amount of positive thinking could change the circumstances that assaulted me yesterday. The facts which stared back at me at the end of the day did not equal “good.” The highlight (or lowlight, as the case may be) came as I was driving and my truck began to billow white smoke… Read More


I really hate it when I repeat myself, but the truth is I do it all the time. As much as I try to stop myself from telling the same stories or writing about the same topics, I catch myself doing it frequently. At least with what I’m about to write here, I realize I’m… Read More


There are a handful of songs I have avoided featuring on “Tuneful Tuesday” because, quite frankly, they cut a little too close to the bone. They dig down past my simply liking the song or feeling as if the words were significant to a place inside me that is not comfortable anymore. They make me… Read More