I could be mistaken, but I believe I once heard Johnny Rzeznik, lead singer and guitarist of the Goo Goo Dolls, describe writer’s block this way: It’s not that you’re not writing anything. In reality, you’re writing stuff all the time. It’s just that you believe everything you’re writing is crap.

I haven’t written anything here since June 20. Well, actually, that’s not entirely true. I’ve started writing a couple of different posts, but I got stuck on both after the first couple of paragraphs. I took a long break from blogging while I was concentrating on school this past semester, and I sort of lost my feel for it. Every sentence just seems wrong somehow.

As July begins, however, I suddenly find myself with all the time in the world to concentrate on being a decent writer again. Because of an internship this past semester, I had to drop down to part-time working hours, and because I was running short on my internship hours, I found myself interning into June, nearly a month after I was supposed to be finished. That leaves me about a month between the internship ending and my fall classes beginning. Since I don’t figure anyone will hire me for part-time work for a month, I’ll only be working four hours a day in July.

All of my newfound free time both excites me and scares me to death. On the one hand, I desperately needed a break after this past semester, and I will definitely be getting that. On the other hand, I’ve already been experiencing anxiety over money, purpose, and just generally finding something worthwhile to do. Writing more is definitely on the agenda, as is getting better on the bass guitar, a sort of weekend warrior pastime of mine. I also need to work on losing some of the weight I’ve put on since beginning graduate school. Somehow, though, none of that seems to be enough, and I find myself getting jittery at least once a day.

So it’s a weird season I find myself in. It’s like having all the time in the world to do what you want but suddenly realizing you have no idea what to do with it. As a result, you may be reading some pretty bad stuff here over the next few weeks. I feel as if I need to regain “the touch,” though, so I’m going to just start throwing stuff at the wall to see what sticks.

Oh, just a side note. Johnny Rzeznik got over his case of writer’s block by writing the song “Iris” for the movie City of Angels. That song did pretty well. Maybe I’ll stumble onto some success as well.


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