It’s very interesting to me that as long as I’ve written this blog, I can’t ever recall touching on the topic of shame. I say that because shame has been a driving force in my life for as long as I can recall. If I remember correctly, I once heard the difference between guilt and… Read More


I don’t enjoy not doing anything. If I am not doing something I feel is productive, I get very anxious and begin to criticize myself for not knowing what to do. It’s as if I have to be accomplishing something all the time or I’m not happy.… Read More


I’m really sleepy right now. That’s not really anything new for me. I tend to stay a bit on the drowsy side most of the time anyway. Tests ordered by my doctor showed I have low testosterone, so I’m getting a shot every two weeks for that. I can’t really tell they’re doing that much… Read More


I mentioned in my last post that the engine in my 2000 Chevrolet S10 pickup truck was no more. To sum up briefly what happened, I believe I had some type of coolant leak, as my temperature gauge never went into the danger zone and thick, white smoke spewed from my tailpipe. In an effort… Read More


“Who exactly do you feel like you’re letting down?” I had never really dwelt on the question before. I just knew I felt as if I wasn’t getting the job done. All my efforts felt scattershot, pecking away a little bit here and there. I could always look back at something I did and blame… Read More


Remember those old westerns where there was a family living on a homestead, and the oldest son desperately wanted to get off the farm, but his parents wouldn’t let him go? He would always go storming out of the house, and the mother would always begin to pursue him, but the father would grab her… Read More


Thanksgiving is a wonderful time of the year in the United States. It’s a time when families come together for no other reason than to acknowledge their blessings, spend time with each other, and eat until their hearts are content. It’s a day when everyone is encouraged to take stock of the good things in… Read More


Before I decided to moan about my whacked-out sleep schedule yesterday, I had intended to write a series of posts this week about guilt and how it basically eats away at the psyches of those who suffer from depression. Of course, I obviously didn’t do that, so now I feel a bit guilty about knocking… Read More


I tried to be good. I really, really did. I white-knuckled the bar until I thought I would bend it in half. I looked around, formed an interpretation of the standard, and did my best to live by it. And now I’m kind of tired. Before anyone gets alarmed, this is not one of those… Read More


In case you’re not familiar with it, this is the Personality Assessment Inventory, a 300-plus item survey designed to evaluate a person’s mental condition. Actually, it’s a little more clinical and technical than that, but the official definition of the P.A.I. contains enough psycho-babble to actually drive a sane person crazy, so I’ll stick to… Read More