I don’t enjoy not doing anything. If I am not doing something I feel is productive, I get very anxious and begin to criticize myself for not knowing what to do. It’s as if I have to be accomplishing something all the time or I’m not happy.… Read More


I once heard someone remark that everyone who comes to therapy does so because they are stuck in some way or another. They may be stuck on a particular event or period of time. They may be stuck in grief and are unable to move on. They may be stuck on a particular relationship which… Read More


There are days when I literally don’t want to get out of bed. It is as if my eyelids won’t respond to the commands from my brain to open. My limbs feel lifeless and numb. My thoughts are jumbled and incoherent. Sleep hangs onto me tighter than the covers I am wrapped in. This has… Read More


I haven’t written anything here in a while, and it’s at a time like this I’m always tempted to write an “I’m back!” kind of post. Truth be told, though, I’m kind of sick of doing that. For one thing, I didn’t really go anywhere; I just didn’t write anything. It also seems sort of… Read More


I have long known that I have perfectionist tendencies. I just cannot stand to get anything wrong. This has become extremely evident to me as of late in the new job I am doing. Without going into great detail, the potential exists for me to complete a task, send it on down the line, and… Read More


“Who exactly do you feel like you’re letting down?” I had never really dwelt on the question before. I just knew I felt as if I wasn’t getting the job done. All my efforts felt scattershot, pecking away a little bit here and there. I could always look back at something I did and blame… Read More


Being institutionalized for a depressive episode is never a laughing matter. Nevertheless, I have a go-to half-joke I always whip out whenever the topic comes up. “You know, sometimes I wish I could be institutionalized, just so I could STOP for a while.” No one ever really laughs. Truth be told, sometimes my life seems… Read More


There are a number of songs I can remember from my lifetime that I just did not “get” when they were popular. Sometimes I was too young to understand what they were talking about. Sometimes I wasn’t in the right frame of mind to appreciate them. And, probably, sometimes I just didn’t care what they… Read More


It’s nearly 11 o’clock at night, and I have to be at work at 6 in the morning. Sometimes, though, you just have to get to a keyboard, ya know? It’s been over two weeks since I’ve written anything here. Most of that two weeks was spent studying for the math portion of the GRE… Read More